emergence

For what seemed like
eons of blur,
in the mire
had I been wallowing,
swimming through it,
savoring its murky lather
like lucid water unbeknownst
to the skin.

Weary to the monotony,
nauseous to the smell
of decaying ebony,
I looked up
seeing the enormous clarity,
a choice that has been
mine for eternity.

I stopped.
I bowed,
finding my chocolate hands
clasped in unison
with my smoggy spirit.

All that had been gray,
All that had been brown,
has turned in total blackness
like an opaque wall of anonymity.

"I am yours!" mumbled in ulcerous lips.

A grain of light suddenly sparked,
eating the vast darkness
enveloping my soul.

For the first time in years
I was breathing the air
I had lost.
My heart was throbbing
out of deep frost.

It felt so light
I was emerging from
the citadel of endless night.

It was raining.
I was melting.
I was floating.
Finally,
I was flying
with my ivory skin
back to my Father’s haven.